“The surest way to lose balance is by comparing yourself to other people.”
So, that’s a quote from Orange is the New Black, Season 7. Naturally, I have binged the entire season. That line struck a real chord with me, because I’m constantly doing just that. I know why I do it. I was taught to do so by my parents. Now, this is not a case of me pointing my finger at either parent. I don’t think this was an intentionally malicious lesson. Regardless of why the lesson was pounded into my head, its been there for way too long. The funny thing is that I’ve always embraced being different. I remember fighting with my mother as a teenager and screaming, “I will never be the person you want me to be…I’m not wired that way!” That is a direct quote. I’m almost positive I said it daily for years. My mother wanted me to be super girly. She wanted me to be her little princess. I sometimes wonder if she had left me to discover my own style without trying to push that shit down my throat…well, its possible I would have come around to the very style I fought so vehemently against. I doubt it. I was given religious freedom and became an atheist. Then again, I feel that was more of an informed, educational decision. So comparing them is pretty pointless. Which brings me back to my original point…why are we always comparing ourselves to others? We need to stop. Pretty sure I’ll be revisiting this topic, but for now…I’ve wandered through the mine fields of my brain too long.